Saturday, June 06, 2009

Dance Anyone?

Before Suit, I went to every school party. I love to have fun and dance everywhere there is music playing. But, those parties meant so much to Suit and boycotting them bothered him so much, I just had to do it.

It is almost party time again and now I considered going. I heard Suit will be there and it would be a good kick in the teeth to Suit if he found out lots of us were going. But, going would mean looking at him and this cancels out the good feeling I get by taking a swing at him.

So, to go or not to go, that is the question of the hour. The party place is walking distance from my house (just about a mile a way) and my husband would be willing to drive me both ways so I can drink away. But, the party is on a Monday night which means a whole week of work after a night of festivities, which, at my age, is not a good idea. Also, I know people find this hard to believe about me, but I am on the shy side. I feel lost in a crowd unless I am with a few people that I am comfortable with and I always feel everyone else has people they would rather be with than me. Suppose no one talked to me all night? Suit would be the one kicking me. Mostly, the idea of partying at work is just not doing it for me anymore. I think I will pass. And so, to answer the question, I'll just say no.

1 comment:

appple said...

oh, do go! and have fun! so much has changed for you this year, and to deprive yourself an enjoyable evening out of anxiety over past issues is unfair to yourself. rally up some people you are comfortable and have yourself a good time!