Saturday, November 27, 2010
Letting My Feelings Out
I am always available to help my students. I even answer their e-mails at night and on weekends. I come to work prepared to teach daily. I never take off and I am always in my classroom on time.
I come to school early, stay late and have even come in on weekends and holidays to give the kids extra help.
I've stayed until 6:00 PM and later marking regents that needed to be marked and copying papers to send to Albany. (Yes, to help Mr. AP meet his deadlines.)
I've always done my best to get the job done, given it my all.
I wanted one more year of being in the classroom before I closed off that part of my life. I wanted a year to enjoy my students and help as many as possible reach their full potential. I didn't seek retirement on the job. I've learned to use the 21st century technology available to me. I reach out constantly to parents, counselors and anyone else I think can helped some of my troubled students.
I am not perfect, in fact I am far from it. I always strived to be the perfect teacher. I've come to realize that will never be me. I'm not talented enough or smart enough to achieve that goal. But, I've also come to realize that many of the teachers I wanted to emulate were not perfect either. And, sadly, I now see that the teachers who are set up as "master teachers" are anything but that.
I'm not looking for accolades or for special privileges or recognition. I want to be left alone to do the job I know I do well. I don't want to worry about "big brother" watching my every move, waiting for that first second when the bell rings to catch the few kids that cannot make it to class on time. I don't want to start harassing good kids for being 30 seconds late when I know these kids do everything in their power to be perfect students. I don't want to spend my energy fighting with a spiteful administrator who is after me for nonsense. I've done nothing to warrant this type of treatment. Call me dumb and naive but I don't understand why it is allowed to go on unless there really is some underground policy about getting rid of older teachers.