Unhappy where he is, unhappy at the thought of leaving, he doesn't know what to do.
The thought of wearing sweat pants, playing cards and lunching with the guys for the rest of his life is not something he is looking forward to. He doesn't like the present but fears the future without the present because, in spite of his current melancholy, there are parts he cannot imagine living without.
Decision time is approaching. He will not let his heart lead the way..