Sunday, October 13, 2013

He Should Just Stop Fighting and Go

 

When my mom died, my dad wanted to die too.  He talked constantly of ending his life.  I cried.  I wasn't ready to lose both my parents at the same time.  Thankfully, his will to live was stronger than his will to die.

It is now six years since my mom has passed away.  Dad's health both physically and mentally is gone.  He is in hospice care.  I love him so much, but it is his time.  No one should be suffering the way he is.  The life he has is no life at all.  I'm ready to let him go.  I want him to stop fighting and go.  I want him to find my mom and be at peace.  I love him so much I want to him to be free.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

That's a tough one. My parents are 84 and 79. There is a fear. And I live with that. Somewhere... you have to find the courage... find the compassion...It's like a wall you have to climb over... when you get to the top of the wall... you see things differently... you see everything... the climb down isn't so difficult. I am sure you will know.

burntoutteacher said...

Thinking of you at this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

My love goes out to you!

Anonymous said...

So sorry you are going through this. Both my parents were in hospice care at the end. The services and care they provided were wonderful and that helped us through it.

Schoolgal

Anonymous said...

My dad died a week ago. He had dementia and I had been losing him over and over the last few years. My mother in law is on the edge of having to go to a nursing home and I feel overwhelmed. Put in pissed off on my search engine and found your blog. I'm so sorry about your dad.

Pissed Off said...

So sorry for you. It is rough and there is nothing to say.